+A Cup of Milk Tea+

Now I understand why Meredith finally broke down and told Derek, "Love me, choose me, pick me!"

Because people can really be retarded sometimes. What we want, we're afraid to ask for directly. We toe along the mental line, asking without really asking, using inferences and hints and suggestions to try and get across what we really want. And then when it doesn't go the way we want, we can only be miserable and wonder "what went wrong?" "what could we have done differently?"

Sometimes though, it just comes down to, 'what if I had said it exactly as I felt it'? But see, the problem there, is that we're afraid. Afraid to trust (anyone, again), afraid to love (deeper, harder, more), afraid of being the one that will be hurt (the one left behind). We're afraid of so many things in life that this fear soon drowns out all the other words and feelings in our head and hearts (simplicities) and that fear becomes more encompassing than the love or the truth or simply the words that we really mean to say.

Don't be afraid.